sex beating in my chest

[piecesof_reeses]

It is fucking embarrassing how out-of-the-loop I am with FOB canon these days. I need to start following icecreamhdaches or something, because I just found out TODAY about Pete's new music project. (Listen to some clips here if, like me, things go way over your head.)

It's--I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. I mean, I'm pretty sure I'm biased just because I kind of wanted FOB to stay together forever and ever (and ever and ever). And...I feel like if Pete's starting a new band, too, then there's not much hope for a FOB reunion anytime soon? I DON'T KNOW. I am happy for him, I suppose. And I do like the music so far. It's catchy! Girl is definitely not Ashlee, though. I'm just putting that out there.

Ugh, I feel like I don't know what to do with myself these days. BBB's over. hs_bingo's starting. And that, by the way, is a whole other can of worms because I can't make myself start writing. I'm trying to write some Frank/Gerard student-on-teacher action (yeah, I know, shut up, it's on my bingo), but it's coming out really forced and fake. Apparently MCR is not the best band for me to write.

I should just stop whining and do it. Like, BOOM. Sex.

I suppose I could always use that porn generator...

Comments

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

just write already :p ahaha, worst advice ever, y/y?

oh my god, my mom just made me read through some college courses and i now want to kill myself/ preemptively drop out of college. "discovering your inner patronus", "is facebooking a noun or a verb?", "edible sea vampires and other such shit". *wibbles**wobbles**vomits*

I still haven't actually listened to both songs (and i don't count the attempt to listen with you on the phone because, i didn't use my headphones which means my brain can't really process what's what. plus, i usually listen to a song at least three times so i can hear all of its pieces and stuff. idk. i'm particular about this. and everything else in life, I guess. Also, it's possible that i'm forever doomed in life because START says to bring a good attitude and i scoffed and thought that they should stuff their good attitudes up their asses, or maybe into their ears since then their tiny dried up brains won't rattle around so much. seriously patronus class. I am not meant for college. I meant for a life of spinsterhood somewhere in the middle of the woods far away from people. and it should rain all the time. i won't have any cats though. I'll never leave my rickety little cabing thing, and i'll just spend all my days dragging a stick around on their dirt floor and cursing humanity under my breath.)

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

also, i forgot, but lj has been weird lately and i dislike it. my flist is all weird and things. i briefy entertained switching venues for this (especially when there was all that blah blah complicated idek and didn't pay much attention to but lj was being greedy and doing shit to peopl's links and things about making money that were whatever for me but kind of shitty i guess, if one were to be involved in amazon recs or whatever they were doing and lj was pretty much cheating you out of commission for it.)

also, i'm apparently annoyed at the world. i blame my mother. because she made me look at all this START shit and then didn't listen to a word out of my mouth about it because she assumes I'm just complaining as opposed to explaining that actually, no, i don't need to do that set of courses since they are useless and don't apply to any useful credits and I'm not just being a spiteful pessimistic pain in the ass. that would be your other daughter. and you are projecting on me again.

I think I need to go kill somethin. i really wish i knew archery.

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

and right after i complain about my weird flist, it's back to normal. is confused.

this icon helps my feelings of aggression. om nom nom the butcher

[piecesof-reeses.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, I'm sorry, but I cannot stop laughing at your comment!pain. It's true, LJ switched your flist back to normal right after you told me about it just to spite you. Fucking Frank. :DDD

And I love how you say you want to kill something, and then mention learning ARCHERY. There are so many easier ways to kill things, bb. Like with that newfangled invention called a gun. Or, for optimal satisfaction, with your bare hands. \o/

I'm sorry about your mom, though. *internet hug*

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

oh, my mom was just having extreme anxious stomach problems because my oldest sister is a basket case and is quite possibly giving my mom an ulcer. and she never wants me to be like her, so they try to fix it. and also try to dictate my non-existant relationships that i might possible have in the future and i try really hard not to remind my mother that i find the human race to be pretty much irredeemable and after spending several hours in the presence of my father and his friends, i have been reminded that men never grow up and are pretty much dirty pigs the rest of their lives, so why bother?

But archery would be a more fun way of killing something i think. also, you know me and loud noises. i could never pull the trigger on the gun. I also wanted to learn to fence really badly when i was about 11. because that is the kind of girl i am.

i was really confused about the frank comment until i remember the little goat.

dude, it was weird, everything was all (this entry may not be suitable for minors). not just on entries on comms (because a lot of comms recently had some weird stuff happen to them courtesy of lj), but on peoples' journals too. it was strange and went on and off for a few days.

[piecesof-reeses.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I don't really know what to say. Here:

♥

Weren't we going to take skating lessons together this summer? Along with dance lessons? We should do that.

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

well, the skating lessons are pretty impossible since the nearest rink is 2hrs away. so...um. 4hrs round trip even onse a week is alittle extreme. we could randomly go skating, though.

i looked into dance lessons and couldn't realy find anything? i mean, i looked through some studios and LBCC (plus, we've now missed start dates for anything LBCC related, i believe.) i dunno. you have any ideas?

[piecesof-reeses.livejournal.com]

Wait, WHAT. Your inner Patronus? That actually...That actually sounds AMAZING. What's it about? Because I kind of want to take it. Also, Edible Sea Vampires sounds really interesting, too. C'mon, Annisa. PATRONUS. VAMPIRES. :D

Hah. They haven't seen a good attitude until they've met you. I'm excited for them. Do you remember when we were in English together, and you kept making catty remarks that were slightly too loud to go unheard? That was awesome.

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

it's all about leadership and finding inner strength and dissecting the harry potter books and making OSU the best school it can be. things that make me want to vomit. idk. the course description just sounded like such utter shit. The edible sea vampires is just a marinebio class i think.

hey, in my defense, i'm pretty sure it's that room. because i did the same thing in psych. but those are the only classes i've ever been quite that bad. seriously. there is something wrong with that room. bad mojo or whatever.
(god, there were times in psych were i muttered things and i swear you didn't even hear me and then avery would come over and start talking to me about it and i would have to try very hard not to have my eyeballs explode.)

(also, i think i actually wanted the teachers to hear me half the time i did that. because i'm slightly passive-aggressive, i think. plus, i never really wanted to go talk to them later and if they would just overhear anything and we could discuss it then without me having to get out of my chair, that would be so miuch better. laziness. it explains everything about me.)

Did you know it's almost impossible to find an actual fucking list of what credits you are required to take on the OSU site? because it is. i spent almost 2 hours and i still have no fucking clue. so yay me. whatever. i'm so going to take this grammar course though because it sounds the least painful of all the courses. and i'm sure i will desperately regret it later. and you know how much i love to complain.

my brain is weird. it decided, without my consent, that we are still entertaining thoughts of entering pediatrics and i thought we'd decided against that in 10th grade. of course, i also never really wanted to work with children if i was ever having any, but yeah. well that probably still won't be a problem due to my issues with human contact and also my complete assurance that sex isn't worth anything, especially the trouble. that and i recently spent time with a baby and remembered that i would totally be one of those parents who would be stay-at-home-ish, but then i would go insane having to take care of a child everyday. i don't like people needing me to do things. i obviously have the maturity of a child's teaset type teacup. let's revist that scenario of me living pretty much in the woods and never leaving my house. seems like a plan.

[piecesof-reeses.livejournal.com]

Oh, god, AVERY. The most obnoxious creeper to ever creep. I'm just glad he wasn't sitting next to anyone he could flirt with. Seriously--it was like banging my head against a wall, slowly.

Oh, no, bb, I was perfectly aware that you wanted to be heard. Passive-aggressiveness for the win! Everyone in our little group is passive-aggressive, to be honest, and I'm pretty sure being around each other just makes it worse. /o\

I thought you didn't like blood? Medicine might not be the best field for you to enter...

[chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com]

no, i'm fine with blood. mostly. i just hate it being drawn from my body. Also, i hate needles. And people. which is all of the reasons i decided not to go into medicine. my brain just doesn't believe in logic and has apparently not let the idea go. I wasn't aware of it until it popped out of my mouth when i was talking to myself. which is how i learn most of my feelings, actually...

ugh. UGH. i just planned out every bacc core class i have to take. i finally kind of figured out the website and my brain hurts a lot from planning several years out. :( college is dumb. that's all I'm saying.

[dr-jasley.livejournal.com]

heck I'm even farther out of the loop than you are....I didn't even know there was any new music project*facepalm*

It's like once again I have nothing to read now that BBB's over.

*cheers you on for writing*...I decided to not sign up for hs bingo because I'm signed up for too many things already(and it sucks when the words come out forced*I just wish my hc prompt would finish writing itself*)

[piecesof-reeses.livejournal.com]

I was totally surprised about it, too! Have you listened to the clips? They're quite catchy, and after listening to them a few times, I think they're definitely growing on me...

[dr-jasley.livejournal.com]

I haven't yet(is it sad but I'm kind of afraid to?)...but I might try to considering you think they're kind of catchy